Sunday, December 19, 2010

Merry Christmas

This holiday season brings good news! Not only good news of the birth of our Lord Jesus but good news that I am still cancer free. The MRI results are good and there are no signs of cancer. No words can express the Joy I feel knowing my journey has almost come to an end. My face has healed and the cancer is gone. This will be the first holiday in almost two years that we will be able to celebrate without fear and worry. What a wonderful feeling!

Tomorrow I have an appointment with my Surgical Oncologist to discuss the options for fixing my face. This will be the last and final step in my journey and it will not be easy. I have a feeling all of my options will be difficult and the recovery will take a long time. I am going to take some time to think about what the best options are that pose the least amount of risk. And I will make sure that I am mentally and physically ready to endure another difficult surgery.

This Christmas I will be counting my blessings and thanking God for getting me through one of the most difficult times in my life. I will be cherishing the moment I get to watch my girls get up Christmas morning with the anticipation of seeing what Santa put under the Christmas tree. And the time I will get to spend with my family on Christmas day and celebrating being cancer free.

One of the traditions Jason, Mackenzie, Kendall and I have on Christmas Eve is to watch the movie the Polar Express. This movie is truly magical and I love the theme it suggests of Believing. Because of experiencing the effects of Santa (the North Pole, toy factories, reindeer etc...) the little boy in the movie overcomes his disbelief, slowly changes his mind and starts to believe in the existence of Santa. With this belief, the boy was finally able to hear the ringing of the bells on Santa's sleigh. Throughout my battle with cancer, I experienced the effect of God's hand in my life: the abundance of love and support from friends and family, messages of hope through God's word, and strength when I needed it most. It is because of this experience I am a true believer in God and his existence. Even though I have had a relationship with God for most of my life, just like the boy in the movie I can finally hear the bells.

Believe in what your heart is saying,
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste,
There so much to celebrate.
Believe in what you feel inside,
And give your dreams the wings to fly.
You have everything you need, if you just Believe.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas! Believe in the magic and miracles it brings!

With Love,


Anonymous said...

Merry Christmas to you and the girls and Jason. I am so happy for you guys to be spending your holiday with a little less stress!! You so deserve it. We love you guys and continually have you in our thoughts and prayers. Lots of love to you!
Suzie (and family)

Anonymous said...

I am SOOOOO happy for you. It is so nice to celebrate remission during Christmas. It is really quite un-explainable, until you've done it.

Merry Christmas, Remission-Buddy!

Much Love,
Jami Helvick

Anonymous said...

Praising God with you!! I am so thankful you got to open that present early-CANCER FREE! Now you can enjoy your Christmas with family- I know it will be a sweet time this year celebrating Jesus' birth and being healthy. :)



Anonymous said...


I just want to let you know that I'm still praying for you. I'm happy for your good news, and I do hope you and your family have a blessed and magical Christmas.

Remember, the scars on your face are battle wounds, you won the battle, but you were left with the scars. I do pray that the Dr.'s are able to bring healing to your face. No matter what scars you have, you are beautiful, brave and strong, and an amazing role model not only to your daughters, but to the rest of us moms out here too.

Thank you and I truly hope you have a VERY Merry Christmas!!

Andrea Wackerfuss

Anonymous said...

Sue, I have reread this entry many times, just to make sure I've read it all correctly! What a wonderful Christmas you had!!! You have made it through so much, and will continue to make it through the next phase of this journey with determination, bravery, and grace. You have helped all of us to "believe." Thank you for reminding all of us what this season is all about...loving family and friends, and letting them know it!! We continue to pray for you, the girls, and Jason. You are an incredible famiy who deserves the VERY best in 2011, along with your sister-in-law Kris and her family!I think of you all very often...Happy New Year!
Kari Karrmann Sides