Have you ever felt like you have prayed so much that you can't pray anymore? I have been feeling like this lately. I have spent almost every moment of every day spending time in prayer....praying and pleading for God to heal my face. The hole in my face. I am beginning to feel frustrated and depleted. I am tired of the stares. I am tired of going to hyperbaric treatment. I am tired of waiting and watching for some sign of healing, seeing no change and having fear of another hole starting. There have been no signs of the hole closing. Panic is starting to set in. These next couple of weeks are crucial. I have come to the point in my hyperbaric treatment when things should start to heal. Should the hole not close or show signs of closing in the next couple of weeks, I am facing yet another surgery. More disfigurement to my face.
What I wouldn't give to be able to move on in my life. To leave this all behind. I feel as if life continues to go on all around me and yet I am stuck in the same place. Trying to heal, going to doctor appointments and having surgery after surgery. School has started for the girls and the change of seasons has begun. Yet I am finding myself stuck and it feels like nothing has changed since this time last year.
So my purpose for my blog today is to ask for your prayers. Please pray that this hole will close and that no more surgery will be required. Pray that I will soon see an end in sight. A wise person told me once that when you feel like you can pray no more to rest in peace knowing that others are praying on your behalf. This has helped me throughout my battle with cancer and will help me today knowing there are many of you out there still praying for me.
My hope is that the next time I update my blog I will be able to share with you good news of healing!
Blessings to you all,