Sunday, September 12, 2010


Have you ever felt like you have prayed so much that you can't pray anymore? I have been feeling like this lately. I have spent almost every moment of every day spending time in prayer....praying and pleading for God to heal my face. The hole in my face. I am beginning to feel frustrated and depleted. I am tired of the stares. I am tired of going to hyperbaric treatment. I am tired of waiting and watching for some sign of healing, seeing no change and having fear of another hole starting. There have been no signs of the hole closing. Panic is starting to set in. These next couple of weeks are crucial. I have come to the point in my hyperbaric treatment when things should start to heal. Should the hole not close or show signs of closing in the next couple of weeks, I am facing yet another surgery. More disfigurement to my face.

What I wouldn't give to be able to move on in my life. To leave this all behind. I feel as if life continues to go on all around me and yet I am stuck in the same place. Trying to heal, going to doctor appointments and having surgery after surgery. School has started for the girls and the change of seasons has begun. Yet I am finding myself stuck and it feels like nothing has changed since this time last year.

So my purpose for my blog today is to ask for your prayers. Please pray that this hole will close and that no more surgery will be required. Pray that I will soon see an end in sight. A wise person told me once that when you feel like you can pray no more to rest in peace knowing that others are praying on your behalf. This has helped me throughout my battle with cancer and will help me today knowing there are many of you out there still praying for me.

My hope is that the next time I update my blog I will be able to share with you good news of healing!

Blessings to you all,


Anonymous said...

Others ARE praying for you Sue! You can rest assured! I hope the hole heals soon and that you will not have to have another surgery. I can't imagine what it is like to live through this but you continue to amaze me with your strength and courage. Your girls witness this everyday and it is making them stronger! Love you!

Anonymous said...

Woops, that was from me, Suzie.... sorry!

Jen Zick said...

Still following your journey, and STILL praying for you!!

Farmgirl Paints said...

Well Lord right now I lift up Sue to you. You know what she's been through and You know how tired and weary she is. I pray that you will comfort her and give her peace. I pray that your healing power will flow through her body. Jesus we know that the stripes you took on your body were for our healing. So right now we boldly ask for that. Heal her from head to toe. Restore her face and heal that skin. Take way this worry and constant fear that she struggles with and replace it with your perfect provision and peace. Thank you in advance Lord for meeting all of her needs. In Jesus name we pray amen.

Anonymous said...

Hi, Sue --

We have continued to pray for you through this fight and please know that we will keep praying until our prayers change from asking God for healing to thanking him for it! Wishing you peace and comfort right now. Love,

Tracy, Jason, Tommy, and Jenna

lots_of_love_four_kids said...

Hi Sue,
following your blog for a while now, since Toni Edwardson was asking for prayers for you on FB. I understand the stuck feeling and can relate to SO much that you said. I have been suffering with a chronic daily headache for over 2 years now. Everyday from the time I wake until I go to bed at night I am saddled with this horrible pain. I would love to move on from this place and leave it all behind. I am faithfully praying for healing for myself and for you. I LOVED "farmgirl's" prayer and am so grateful that she posted it. It was a blessing to me.
I am believing God to heal you Sue. May you feel His love and peace as you await His powerful hands on your life. God Bless.

Anonymous said...

It was great seeing you at church on Sunday. I can only imagine how weary you are. I loved your story on carrying your cross in the last entry. It made me think how our King of Kings, our Lord Jesus Christ, at the end of his horrific suffering for us, needed help carrying His cross those last steps. It is as if He was modeling how we here on earth, in our fallen world, would need to help each other carry our crosses at different times in our lives. Sue, I envision all of us who are praying for you, reaching out, touching your cross, trying to help carry some of the burden and the weight that you feel. Know that when you need rest- we will continue to lift you up through prayer! The most beautiful thing I know to be true is that JESUS knows exactly how you feel and HE is the only one who truly can bear the weight of the cross. He is your strength in your weakness and He will carry you. He is everything you will ever need.

Praying for healing, rest, hope, joy, strength, and peace to fill you in full measure through the power of Jesus name.

Anonymous said...

Prayers, prayers, prayers.......healing is on its way. Keep your chin up and look to your have a wonderful one ahead of you, Sue. Keep focused on that and those girls smiles and are loved by us all.
Kari Karrmann Sides

Anonymous said...


I'm always praying for you...always...every day, when you're tired of praying and can't pray anymore, remember there are many of us out here praying for you, for healing and that one day soon you can move ahead with your life. Keep moving forward toward the prize that Christ has called you, you still have hope. Hebrews 11:1 "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrews 11, God's hall of faith, is full of God's special, faithful servants. You are one of his modern day faithful special servants.
My prayers are with you always,

Anonymous said...

We are praying here too. Thinking of you often.