Good things come to those to wait

So my day did not start off very well. I had called the triage nurse at my oncology clinic to let her know that I was anxiously awaiting a phone call from the doctors to let me know the results of my scans. Bless her heart, she decided to read the results herself. Bad news....the cancer was still there. I immediately lost it. I felt like the rug had been pulled from under me feet. My dreams of celebrating were shattered and all the hope I had was false. I was scared to death. I laid in bed all day crying. My family was also devastated by the news. I was SO angry at God. I was given so many messages of hope. I believed in those messages. Now, I felt like I had nothing more to believe in. I could not do it anymore...no more treatment. No more pain. No more suffering. Yet, I had an inner voice keep telling me...wait for the doctors to call.

I received a phone call at 3:30 today from the nurse who had spoken to my Surgical Oncologist. She also sat in on the tumor conference that was held today to discuss my case. Good news...the scans were negative. The tumor was still there but it had shrunk and it was not cancerous. A tremendous weight was lifted off my shoulders. Tears started flowing not only on my face but the faces of my family. Prayers have been answered. Thank you Lord!!!

To be on the safe side, the doctor wants to biopsy the tumor. If there is anything that needs to be removed at the time will be removed. But I feel confident that all will be good.

I can't thank you all enough for the prayers, the support and the encouragement. God used each an every one of you to help me get through this. I felt so loved...it was God's love shown through each of you. I will continue to keep you all updated on my upcoming surgery that will take place on the November 11th and on the progress I am continuing to make.

Now it's time to celebrate!!!