Monday, December 14, 2009

Cancer not gone

Well, the results were not what we were hoping for. The cancer is still there. Next step...surgery. They will remove the cancer from my sinuses. It will be a long and hard surgery requiring my face to be reconstructed. They cannot guarantee if they will be able to save my eye. It all depends on whether or not the cancer has entered into the fatty area of the eye or not. The eye will be removed if it has. I will be meeting with my doctor and a plastic surgeon who will be in on the surgery in the next couple of weeks. Surgery dates has yet to be determined.

I am so devastated and cannot contain my emotions right now. I feel very let down and that the hope the first biopsy gave me has been completely stripped away. I am beginning to wonder if this is every going to end. Am I going to survive this?

Please pray. Pray for wisdom for the doctors. Pray for protection of my eye. Pray that I will be able to find strength to get through this. Pray that this will be the last and final step towards a cure.

8 comments:

Anonymous said...

Sue,

I am praying for you. I don't even know what else to say right now...this has left me speechless. Please know that you are loved. I'm attaching a video clip from You Tube...it's a segment from Louie Giglio's "How Great is Our God" DVD...right now, all I can think to tell you is that God is holding you together...it's all about Laminin. Watch this and you'll see what I mean. This clip, on its own, isn't quite as powerful, so if you feel inclined, and haven't already seen it, I'd recommend getting the DVD. It's truly life changing.

Love,
Jennie K.

OK, so it won't let me paste the website here. Go to You Tube and enter "Louie Giglio Laminin" and it'll come up...you want the 9 minute version. I'll also send it to you via facebook.

Anonymous said...

Oh my, you dear sweet child of God. My heart goes out to you and your family. Our prayers will continue. You are cared for by so many. Even though I don't personal know you, you have been part of our prayers and concerns for so long. Love, Barbara in Texas

Anonymous said...

I am grieving with you tonight Sue, but I will not stop praying! God has a plan at work though we cannot see it now.

Love and Prayers,
Dani

Anonymous said...

I am a friend of a friend, and though I have been praying for you this entire time, I have yet to leave a comment. I am guessing for every comment left, there are 20 others who follow your journey and add you to their prayers...that is a lot of prayers. I will be praying for you with increased ferver, for complete healing, for strength for all of you, and for hope for your future. I look forward with great anticipation to hear the words cancer-free on here. God, please bless your child, Sue, and hold her tight in the coming weeks. Cancer sucks.

Amy Denzer

Anonymous said...

Sue, I am without words here. I am in shock and so incredibly angry. I am certain you will conquer this, I'm just sorry it will take more steps for this to happen. Take it one step at a time. We cannot change what will be, we can only change how we react to it. You have a wonderful family and so many friends, take strength in all of them. We will continue to pray and keep you in our thoughts. Let us know if you need anything, even just to chat.

Anonymous said...

Sue,

I am devastated for you. I will pray for you and your family. I cannot believe this roller-coaster you are living. You must be exhausted. I wish I had words to make this better, but just know that I am thinking of you, praying for you and that we all love you.

Love,
Suzie

Anonymous said...

Dearest Sue,
What a perfect song you chose to play with the harsh message you just sent. Our God still is faithful, our hope and strength. We didn't expect this result from your biopsy and feel devastated with you and your family. We continue to pray for God to hold you in His everlasting arms.
Our love, Julie and Lowell Johnson

Anonymous said...

dearest sue,
my heart breaks for you. your family who is also part of my family. my grandma was so sad yesterday for you when she told me that the cancer is there still. i pray for you to be strong and have faith that god will carry you through this. so often when im struggling to make it through a day i remember my fathers favorite verse. John 10:25-30. anytime im scared or nervous i close my eyes and repeat it to myself in my head. it gives me strength. so continue to read gods word and to let strength grow in you. stay stong sue. and know you are loved by many. including me.

hope to visit with you and your family soon.
Love Erin Raese