Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Press On

Today has been a much better day.  I have been able to get my pain under control.  It is still there, and eating is difficult, but I am not wincing as much as I have been these past couple of days.  The Lanacane the doctor prescribed has done wonders on the sores in my mouth.  It only gives temporary relief, but I will take what I can get.  If I am consistently take my pain medication my throat isn't as bad.  It is amazing how a little pain relief can change your attitude! And now, I feel like I can Press On.  I just need to deal with my anxiety about my surgery tomorrow for the feeding tube placement.

When my daughter Mackenzie found out I was going to get a feeding tube, she was so excited.  Before Mackenzie came home from the NICU at Children's Hospital, they gave her a feeding tube.  She has had one ever since.  It has become a part of her body and it does not even phase her.  I have often thought every child should come with a feeding tube.  Especially on the days they refuse to take medication or eat their vegetables.  Mackenzie has reassured me many times that I have nothing to worry about.  That it is easy to have a feeding tube.  That I should not be afraid.  But it is not the actual feeding tube I am worried about.  It is the actual surgery.  Never have I worried about going under or having surgery...but since my body has already endured so much affliction and has been pumped full of medications, chemotherapy drugs and radiation I wonder if it can handle the stress of surgery. I will feel so relieved once tomorrow is over and done with it.  Please pray that the surgery will go smoothly tomorrow, that I will not have a reaction to the anesthesia, that I will not loose too much blood due to being on a blood thinner and that the pain will be minimal.  Thank you all for the prayers and encouragement!!!


Anonymous said...

Sue, a song for you:

Great is Thy faithfulness, O, God my father
There is no shadow of turning with Thee
All I have needed Thy hand hath provided
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord, unto me

Great is Thy faithfulness
Great is Thy faithfulness
Morning by morning new mercies I see
Thou changest not, Thy compasions, they fail not
Great is Thy faithfulness, Lord unto me



Anonymous said...

Dear Sue,

Been following your trials with prayer and amazement. You're right; where can you go but to the Lord, not necessarily for answers but for what we all live for,...Hope. Who else is there to hope on or to hope in as there isn't anyone else who can deliver. The One who can create life, who creates compassion and understanding, love and grace, beauty and tears and who gives us the grace to have Faith that leads to our everlasting Hope that we all hold to, a hope that declares He is in Control over Everything at All Times, a Hope that is settled and secure. No surprises, no mistakes, no wrong turns,...for who can thwart the plans of God,...and who (after some reflection like Job, would want to) because deep down we all want what He wants,...the best for us (as only a loving Father could) that brings Glory to Him.
I wish I had the wisdom of Solomon to say the perfect words for you, but I can only tell you how much we love you, are praying for you and how much we look forward to a day very soon when the Lord works another work in you and removes all the pain and anxious moments, when you are restored in a way that will cause such great rejoicing for you. You know, I think you are right now causing great rejoicing in heaven as millions of angels that surround you and your family daily sing the praises of your faith during these confusing and dark days. Light will come in the morning and your face will be aglow with His light, peace and joy. Love, Uncle Mark

Anonymous said...

Sue, I will be praying for you that all goes well and you will not be stressed out over this but have the Lord's peace. Love
Maryann Raese

Anonymous said...

Always thinking about you. I keep your gift in my pocket. My thoughts and prayers go with you tomorrow. Call me when you have that bonfire, I have a few memories I would like to burn too.

Kelly said...


You have done amazing things this last few months. Good luck today. I hope it goes simply and it helps you to feel better in the coming days. You are constantly in my thoughts and prayers.

Kelly (Thompson) Tews

Anonymous said...


Been praying for you. May Christs strength, the Savior, the one who conquered the grave, may His power become perfect in your weakness.

Steve Tuttle