When my daughter Mackenzie found out I was going to get a feeding tube, she was so excited. Before Mackenzie came home from the NICU at Children's Hospital, they gave her a feeding tube. She has had one ever since. It has become a part of her body and it does not even phase her. I have often thought every child should come with a feeding tube. Especially on the days they refuse to take medication or eat their vegetables. Mackenzie has reassured me many times that I have nothing to worry about. That it is easy to have a feeding tube. That I should not be afraid. But it is not the actual feeding tube I am worried about. It is the actual surgery. Never have I worried about going under or having surgery...but since my body has already endured so much affliction and has been pumped full of medications, chemotherapy drugs and radiation I wonder if it can handle the stress of surgery. I will feel so relieved once tomorrow is over and done with it. Please pray that the surgery will go smoothly tomorrow, that I will not have a reaction to the anesthesia, that I will not loose too much blood due to being on a blood thinner and that the pain will be minimal. Thank you all for the prayers and encouragement!!!
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
Today has been a much better day. I have been able to get my pain under control. It is still there, and eating is difficult, but I am not wincing as much as I have been these past couple of days. The Lanacane the doctor prescribed has done wonders on the sores in my mouth. It only gives temporary relief, but I will take what I can get. If I am consistently take my pain medication my throat isn't as bad. It is amazing how a little pain relief can change your attitude! And now, I feel like I can Press On. I just need to deal with my anxiety about my surgery tomorrow for the feeding tube placement.