Friday, September 18, 2009

Rough week

This has been a tough week for me. I am struggling with exhaustion, nausea and pain. The doctors are trying to find a good balance of the medications they are giving me to not only prevent withdrawl but also to keep me comfortable. I spent the day at the hospital on Monday getting IV meds and fluids because I was so sick. My body is really going through a lot of changes. The areas that were exposed to the radiation (my face, head, neck) are achy and painful to the touch. My mouth is definitely starting to heal, but the new skin that is reappearing is very tender and sensitive making it difficult to eat.

Needless to say I am so frustrated. I definitely took a lot of steps back in my recovery process. I want so badly to feel good again. I see no end in sight.

That is it for now. I am sorry I have nothing positive to say. I look forward to the day that the words on my blog are rejoicing and happy.

Please continue to pray for my recovery and that it will start to go faster. I am not sure how much longer I can take this.



Anonymous said...

Oh Sue, I'm so sorry you are having such a terrible recovery... I wish I could take some of the pain and discomfort from you. I think about you a lot, as many of us do, and we too look forward to the day where the post is even just a little bit better than the previous one. Keep fighting Sue, I know you can do it!

Anonymous said...

You can do it! You can do it! You can beat this thing! Hold tight to the Truth! You WILL get better!

Anonymous said...

In Jesus name we PRESS ON!! PRESS ON Sue!! You can do all things through Christ who gives you strength! Take it one day at a time and each day He will meet you where you are at!! I'm so sorry it is not better yet but you will get there! Keep fighting! We love you!
Michelle A.

Anonymous said...

It will be over soon, Sue. Cindy and I read your blog often. We find hope in it. You are making a difference to us as a couple. Thanks for fighting, being brave, and not letting this defeat you. You must be so tired and frustrated, but soon you'll be free from the pain and we can all celebrate. Its coming...Trey

Anonymous said...

Sue I am so sorry you have had a hard recovery.
Trust in God's faithfulness! God's work, done in God's way, will never lack God's supply! He will carry you through Sue... you may be faint and weary, but your Heavenly Father is all powerful! Your feelings may fluctuate, but He is unchangeable.
Heb. 11:1 Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.
Believe there are better days ahead and hope for what you do not see Sue. God is near... it brought tears to my eyes when you told me about the beautiful flock of birds on your deck. What an awesome God to tell you I can take care of not just one bird but many and I will take care of you too.
An excerpt from Michael W. Smith' song I Can Hear Your Voice...
I can hear your voice as you sing over me. It's your song of hope breathing life into me. I can feel Your touch as I come close to You. And it heals my heart. You restore and renew.

May God restore and renew your strength, faith and hope. Praying for better days ahead!

Anonymous said...

Sue....I'm so sorry to hear what you have been going through.....I've really just found out by reading your blog today. You have been tried once with MacKenzie and we both know it well.. and you will get through this!!! I'm thinking about you and your family and my prayers are with you!
Loretta Richter

lizzy said...

I LOVEEEE UUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and am sooooooooooooooo very very blessed to be ur friend, i think and pray for u ALWAYSSSSS susie-q. we're here no matter what!!!!!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Dear Sue...
You are being lifted up in prayer tonight...May God lift your spirit and hold you in His arms each day...pour your suffering out on Him...He will give you rest and healing.

Tom and Pat

Anonymous said...

Sue, It's hard to wait so long for healing from radiation. This is temporary not permanent. Remember Jeremiah 30:17 I will give you back your health and heal your wounds said the LORD.It won't all be today but it will BE! Many times a day I pray "Father in the name of Jesus I come before you asking you to heal me. It is written that the prayer of faith will save the sick and the Lord will raise him up". Now I add your name too. I knownthe feeling of just wanting to be normal again. It will come. Never never never give up!!!!! Love You, Pat