This entry will be brief....I need sometime to process the news I just received.
The results of the scans were not what I was hoping for. There is an infection and inflammation and a couple of spots that are questionable. My surgeon wants to go back in and take a look around. He will remove a portion of the mesh that is infected and check to make sure the questionable areas are not cancerous. He is hopeful it is not cancer because the cancer is slow growing and he cannot imagine it would have grown that much in such a short amount of time. The surgery will most likely be scheduled for next week.
I am very upset, disappointed, scared and angry. Facing yet another surgery is hard for me. I am so emotionally exhausted that I am finding it hard to fight on. I just wish for once I could just get good news without complications. In the past, when the doctor has said it could just be infection and inflammation it has turned out to be cancer. So I don't have a lot of confidence right now. I feel like the rug has been yanked out from underneath my feet.
We could use your prayers. I am going to need a supernatural strength to get through this next hurdle. My family is also exhausted from all of this. Mackenzie is having some emotional issues from the stress of this past year. When will this all end? When will we catch a break? How much more can we take? I am feeling like this is never going to end.