By Phillip C. Vinson
Be not weary in well doing we are told,
Weariness in body also wants to have a hold.
Weariness just seems to creep in,
It all started with Adam's sin.
As I get older weariness seems to know,
But when time to leave it is slow.
Weariness sometimes just takes it's toll,
But gives me strength, there is no lack.
One day weariness will have to go,
It will be banned from my life, that I know.
Weariness can sure wear you out,
Satan enjoys that, that's what he is all about.
I can still come to God in those times too,
He refreshes me, He knows just what to do.
Weariness has visited many in it's day,
And many more it will visit before it goes away.
One day God will tell it to go,
That will be a wonderful day I know.
One day weariness will no longer be,
Jesus will have removed it from you and me.
That word will no longer be,
From getting old, tired, weary I will be free.
When weary in body or Spirit God helps us down life's road,
He will be there to help us with our heavy load.
We know one day this will all end,
Because an all new life we will begin.
It has been a long year of fighting, recovering and healing. My spirit is broken and I feel as if I have lost my inner joy. I seem to be going through my days emotionless and exhausted. This past year and the recovery from the surgery has taken its toll on me. I have given every ounce of my being to fight this cancer. Now, I am weary in body and spirit.
I am in desperate need of a break. A break from the doctors, the appointments, the anxiety and from the fearful thoughts in my mind. I would give anything to be able to live my life without worry and anxiety. No matter what I do, it is always there. I am still healing from my physical wounds, but have a long way to go to heal from the mental wounds this cancer has caused.
Like this poem says, one day God will tell it to go. How I long for that day. When I will no longer be weary. That once again I will find joy and be free from the burdens I bare. I know it will happen one day. That I will get through this. My only comfort is knowing that God is there to help me with my heavy load. That God has already given me the peace that I so desperately need.
Psalm 119:28 "My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according unto your word."
Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you, He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do no be afraid; do not be discouraged."
Hebrews 13:5 "He himself has said, I will never leave you nor forsake you."
Genesis 28:15 "Behold I am with you and will keep you wherever you go."
John 14:27 "Peace I leave you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."
Please pray for strength both mentally and physically. Please pray this infection will go away. Please pray this cancer will STAY away.
I am so close to my goal of $1,000 for the Relay for Life. Please help me get there! If you wish to donate, please click on the link above. All money raised will go to the American Cancer Society and the fight against cancer.