Friday, March 5, 2010


By Phillip C. Vinson

Be not weary in well doing we are told,
Weariness in body also wants to have a hold.
Weariness just seems to creep in,
It all started with Adam's sin.
As I get older weariness seems to know,
But when time to leave it is slow.
Weariness sometimes just takes it's toll,
But gives me strength, there is no lack.
One day weariness will have to go,
It will be banned from my life, that I know.
Weariness can sure wear you out,
Satan enjoys that, that's what he is all about.
I can still come to God in those times too,
He refreshes me, He knows just what to do.
Weariness has visited many in it's day,
And many more it will visit before it goes away.
One day God will tell it to go,
That will be a wonderful day I know.
One day weariness will no longer be,
Jesus will have removed it from you and me.
That word will no longer be,
From getting old, tired, weary I will be free.
When weary in body or Spirit God helps us down life's road,
He will be there to help us with our heavy load.
We know one day this will all end,
Because an all new life we will begin.

It has been a long year of fighting, recovering and healing. My spirit is broken and I feel as if I have lost my inner joy. I seem to be going through my days emotionless and exhausted. This past year and the recovery from the surgery has taken its toll on me. I have given every ounce of my being to fight this cancer. Now, I am weary in body and spirit.

I am in desperate need of a break. A break from the doctors, the appointments, the anxiety and from the fearful thoughts in my mind. I would give anything to be able to live my life without worry and anxiety. No matter what I do, it is always there. I am still healing from my physical wounds, but have a long way to go to heal from the mental wounds this cancer has caused.

Like this poem says, one day God will tell it to go. How I long for that day. When I will no longer be weary. That once again I will find joy and be free from the burdens I bare. I know it will happen one day. That I will get through this. My only comfort is knowing that God is there to help me with my heavy load. That God has already given me the peace that I so desperately need.

Psalm 119:28 "My soul is weary with sorrow; strengthen me according unto your word."

Deuteronomy 31:8 "The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you, He will never leave you nor forsake you. Do no be afraid; do not be discouraged."

Hebrews 13:5 "He himself has said, I will never leave you nor forsake you."

Genesis 28:15 "Behold I am with you and will keep you wherever you go."

John 14:27 "Peace I leave you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."

Please pray for strength both mentally and physically. Please pray this infection will go away. Please pray this cancer will STAY away.



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Anonymous said...

I can only imagine how weary you feel, Sue. How emotionally exhausted you are in spirit. Saw my first robin today, which is a sure sign that Spring is right around the corner. Times of refreshing and renewal WILL come, Sue. And they will come from your Heavenly Father who knows so intimately what you've been through.

We love you! Let us know how we can bring some sunshine to your life!


Rich & Cheri

Anonymous said...


I ache for you as this battle has been so long, and your entire being is weary. I know how exhausted I am at the end of a stressful and busy week or month, but I cannot imagine how you feel at the end of a 24/7 one year battle. I pray rest for your soul and your body. I cannot wait for the day that you experience wholeness again. We will all feel so much joy with you!

Hold onto this promise: "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light."-Matt. 11:28-30

We continue to keep you in our thoughts and prayers and frequently check your updates!

Love and prayers,

Anonymous said...

I was at bible study and was so inspired and moved by our lesson. The premise of the lesson is how we as women feel responsible for the "how" in our lives- whether it is feeling responsible for everyone we love or we feel responsible to fix things or change things. Women often feel like they need to play JR. God. Obviously a lot of your weariness is physical exhaustion from all that you have been through this year-over time and as your body heals that weariness will subside. The other aspect of weariness is the emotional/mental exhaustion. The lesson really helped me understand God's role in this. It says in 2 Peter 2:9a " The Lord knows HOW to rescue the godly from trials..." In Isaiah 30:18 it says "Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for Him."
"The Lord waits... blessed are all those who wait for Him ."(ESV)

I know you have shared that it is hard to WAIT for God to completely heal you and to restore you. In our lesson we were told -What qualifies it as" a wait" is the "longing". Without longing, it really isn't a wait- you don't really care or need it. When your prayer request waits and God is waiting too then there is something He is waiting for. God's patience always involves His passion. When the Lord comes in that situation, He will come swiftly. Until then you wait and you long, but you trust in Him and do not fret. For the Lord longs and waits with you. We can't fret our way to victory. Faith is the victory! Trust that things will turn around. Trust it BEFORE it happens- that is true faith.
I found it so comforting to know that God is responsible for the HOW and that He longs to be gracious to you and HE RISES to show you compassion. I am in awe of our Almighty God rising for His children, for you... for me...
Sue, God in His perfect timing will come swiftly in your need, know that He waits and longs with you. Trust that it WILL turn around and believe that He knows HOW to rescue you.

You are not a victim of our world, but rather of victor in Christ who knows how and when to deliver you.
Praying for you in your wait and longing dear friend,