This past weekend was so tough. Not only because all of the emotions that I have been experiencing, but because of what my body is going through. I have been experiencing a lot of nausea due to all of the mucus and drainage from my mouth and nose. I have thrown up a few times which is not fun with all of the sores in my throat and mouth. It has been difficult to keep on top of the pain. The sores in my mouth are breaking open. I think I might have another sinus infection. And I am just tired. Last night I spent some time in the ER getting some pain medications for some temporary relief and IV fluids for dehydration. It was so unbearable.
I am really struggling with whether or not to keep updating all of you on what I am going through. It is really tough right now and I worry I am being too depressing. But all I can do is be honest with what is going on. There is nothing good about it. This is the reality of cancer. So I apologize. But after reading the many messages left today on my blog, I decided I would sink into a deeper hole if I was not able to read your messages of encouragement and support. So I will continue. The blogs may not be as frequent so please be patient.