Monday, July 6, 2009

Miracle of Long Ago

I recently had an encounter with two people that became very special to our family eight years ago when Mackenzie was born.  The first person is a doctor that frequently took care of Mackenzie in the NICU for 6 months.  He knew my parents as they attended Taylor University together way back when.  And he came very special to me and Jason during the many months we waited for Mackenzie to come home.  This doctor is amazing because he prays for each and every baby he takes care of in the NICU.  He knows that prayer is the only "medicine" that truly helped the babies in the NICU to survive. There were many, many, many times that Mackenzie should have died.  Yet, because all of the prayers she defeated the odds and lived.  This doctor and many of the other doctors in the NICU were amazed by the miracle she is.  

The other day, this doctor, again through ties to my parents and Taylor University, left a message on this blog to encourage me and remind of the strength we had to get through Mackenzie's birth and struggle to live.  I just cried when I read his message.  It meant a lot to me that he would take the time to write on my blog.   It also reminded me of the miracle of Mackenzie.  God was there by our side every step of the way.  He was there through the many surgeries she had. God loved her and cared for her.  He placed very special people in her life to care for her.  In fact, when I look at her life up until now, I can see God's hand in selecting the many people (doctors, nurses, therapists, teachers, schools) that have helped her overcome many obstacles in her life.  Sometimes on Sunday mornings at church I will sit and see many of these special people sitting in the congregation joining with me in worshipping God.  

Not only did we get to be very close with the staff in the NICU, but we became close friends with many of the parents that had babies in the NICU as well.   Unfortunately, many of these families did not have the outcome that Mackenzie did and we found ourselves attending many funerals of the babies that did not live.  Today, after walking out of the hospital we bumped into one of these very special friends that we have not seen since the NICU days.  We spent a lot of time with this couple supporting one another through the ups and downs.  Unfortunately, their precious little girl did not survive.  It was so sad and a very difficult time for these friends of ours and for us to watch them mourn the death of their baby girl.  But the bond we formed with these friends was so strong.  So seeing our friend today was very special for me.  He was aware of my battle with cancer and little did he know how much his words of encouragement meant to me.   This friend had been by our side through one of the worst times of our lives and here he was again supporting us during another difficult time in our life.  Getting encouragement from someone who has journeyed with us before was special.  I just wanted to cry and say "Can you believe this? Haven't we gone through enough?" But, words did not need to be said because we knew that he cared.  It was just understood.

So these two encounters were a much needed reminder...God took care of Mackenzie and he took care of us during our time in the NICU.  God had placed very special people in our lives to be a support to us during what was the most difficult time in our lives.   In fact, a lot of these people that were a blessing to Mackenzie are now a blessing to me through my battle with cancer.   And God has given us so many more people that have been a blessing and a tremendous support to us.  Little did we know moving into our neighborhood 5 years ago would we receive the outpouring of love and support from the friends and families that live among us.  They have made sure there is food on the table for my family.  They have taken the girls for playdates. Many of you that followed Mackenzie's journey through her website are once again showing us support through this journey.  I have a Junior High Social Studies teacher that has faithfully been praying for my healing since day one.  Dear college friends that I have not spoken to for years have gone out of their way to show me that they care.  Childhood family friends that still call me "Susie" have sent endless cards with words of encouragement.  A group of anonymous women sent me a box of hats to wear.  Our parents have taken turns each week staying with us to care for the girls and to drive me to the hospital.  I could go on and on.  God cared for us back in the NICU and he is showing he cares for us now.  With God's grace we survived and we WILL survive this.  

The verse that was given to me at the very beginning of my journey has popped back into my mind.  "Will the Lord reject forever?  Will he never show his favor again?  Has his unfailing love vanished forever?  Has his promise failed for all time?  Has God forgotten to be merciful?  Has he in anger withheld his compassion?  Then I thought, To this I will appeal:  the years of the right hand of the Most High.   I will remember the deeds of the Lord; yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago.  I will meditate on all your works and consider your might deeds."  Psalms 77:7-12


Anonymous said...

Sue, your words fill us with hope when it is us who should be doing so with you. May the Lord bless and comfort you each day as you weather this crisis and head towards a bright future. We contine praying for Jason and the girls as well.

Jeff and Cindi

Anonymous said...

Isn't it amazing how God can provide us that little ounce of hope on the days we need it most?! Often times people who end up blessing you don't even know what it meant. Thanks for sharing how God is taking you through and giving you hope. We continue to pray that God will bring the love and support that you need to perservere through another difficult time in your life.
Julie Dahl

Anonymous said...

i think about you every day. i just love ya! praying for you!!!!!!

LuAnn Prin (Brower) said...

Hi Sue and J, as you know by now i am computer challenged. your mom is shocked when she gets a email from me. anyway, i have been following your blog as i pray for you. i have been so encouraged for you as God meets your needs in amazing ways, food, play dates, hats and on and on. as i read yesterdays blog, i do remember mackenzie' dr. as i was reading in the Psalms a few weeks ago a verse became apparant that it spoke of you and i have been reading it with you in mind. it is Psalm 73:28 "But for me it is good to be near God;I have made the Lord God my refuge, that I may tell of all thy works." thanks for sharing your heart with all of us. you will continue to be in my prayers. love, LuAnn

Anonymous said...

Thank you for the reminder today. It is amazing how God has been faithful for you through so much. I am confident that God will continue to be your Rock through this adversity.

We continue to pray for you everyday. Bella calls you "Miss Zue" as she prays, it is very cute. It always makes me and Connie smile.

Derek, Connie, and Bella