The gift of Mushroom has given me something to look forward to every day. And at this point of time, I will take every distraction I can get. These past couple of days have been extremely rough. I have been experiencing a lot of nausea and having hard time keeping anything in my stomach. Just when I thought I had hit an all time low, I think I hit it yesterday. I was begging and pleading for Jason to not take me to radiation. I just did not have it in me anymore. So we went to the Oncologists first to see if there was something they could do to help. They gave me some IV fluids and IV medications to help give me a boost. Luckily that did the job and I was able to complete my radiation therapy for the day. It is hard to be in this situation...there are days you just don't have it in you to go to radiation. But if you skip a day it just gets added on to the end. To add it on to the end at this point will not help my mental state as I am desperately clinging on to the idea that next Wednesday is the last day! So as of today, I have one more round of chemo on Monday and radiation therapy will be completed on Wednesday.
Right now, I do feel like I a lot like an ugly caterpillar like Mushroom. How I wish I could just go and hide into a caccoon. With a bald head and burns all over my face and neck I look forward to the day that I can feel feminine again. I hope that I will too, transform into a beautiful butterfly again like Mushroom. Not just on the outside, but on the inside as well. I hope that I will take all of the lessons I have learned about life and myself and apply them in how I live my life from here on out. I want to be a better friend, better wife and better mom. I want to live life to its fullest!
Please continue to pray for strength to get through next Wednesday. Pray that I will no longer have any setbacks and experience nausea. Please pray that the cancer will get out of my face and out of the orbit of my eye. And pray that I will be able to have peace and no anxiety as I wait to heal over the next few months and for the final scans to be completed in October.
Thank you all for all that you do and all that you are! I appreciate each and every one of you!