Tuesday, April 21, 2009

First Day - Chemo

The activities have begun.  I am now in the hospital getting ready for Chemo.  It probably won't start until this afternoon.  First, they need to start some IV fluids to flush my system as the chemo can be extremely hard on the kidneys.  Yesterday, the port went in.  The surgery went fine, but I had a hard time coming out of it and had an allergic reaction to one of anti-nausea medications they gave me.  I ended up staying a little longer than anticipated.  Once I got home, I went straight to bed.

This morning I woke up with a lot of anxiety and found myself trying to keep busy with the girls and packing.  It helped to keep my mind off of things.  I am so anxious about the side effects of Chemo.  I am so afraid of what is going to happen to my body.  What is not helping my state of mind right now is the fact that I have a roommate in hospital and she is agony.  It is so hard to listen to it and it is scaring me to death!   I keep looking at Jason saying I can't do this...

Please pray that things will go smoothly and that I will not experience bad side affects.  I am hoping they can keep it under control.  This is my number one prayer request right now.  

A special thank you to those of you that have signed up to bring meals to my family and have taken the girls for playdates.  The love that has been shown to us is overwhelming.  I feel so blessed to have wonderful friends and a great neighborhood!   

And thank you for leaving me such kind and encouraging messages on my blog.  They uplift me and keep me strong!

13 comments:

Jen said...

Dear Sue, Just know that I have already been praying for you today and will continue to do so. I am praying that the peace that surpasses all understanding will flood your soul and give you rest. Thanks so much for keeping us posted, so we know how to pray for you. Lots of love to you and your family!

Jen Falk

Anonymous said...

Sue...my son prayed last night that "mommy's friend sue gets a smart doctor"...I thought that was a good prayer and pretty original...:) We are out here thinking of you today as you start this process...You can do it! You are doing it Sue by getting up, going in and sharing so boldly what is going on. You are so brave! God bless you and your family! jen fortner

Anonymous said...

Sue, I am so relieved to hear from you. It's hard not knowing what's going on, so your blog is a Godsend to those who are lifting you up in prayer. God's mercies are raining on you, and he will protect you!!! We love you and are constantly bending Our Great Healer's ear on your behalf!

Love Rich & Cheri & the kids

donna said...

Dear Sue: God has you in the palms of His hands! Isn't that a wonderful, comforting promise? My prayer for you today (as you begin
chemotherapy) is that you will sense His hands and arms holding you close, sheltering you from ANY fears, assuring you that He truly never will leave you nor forsake you. You will sense His power, His peace and His presence in ways you probably never knew were possible. Hang on, girl! You can do this! Loving you, Donna Lundborg

Trey Barber said...

Thank you for such beautiful blogs. When this process has moved past and you are holding your beautiful babies in your arms, celebrating life, you should pen a book. If the blog is any indication, it would be a beautiful and inspirational story. We are praying for you at the Barber house. Cindy and I update each other every day. If there is anything we can do, please don't hesitate to ask. All our love - Cindy, Riley, Krew and Me.

Anonymous said...

Dear Sue, I knew you as a little girl growing up at church. Several years have passed and as I logged onto your blog it was evident that you have grown into a Beautiful Woman of God...reflecting His Grace & Presence in your life. Our family is lifting you & your precious family up in prayer. Thank you for being so brave...so honest...so dependent on your loving God. Nancy London

Anna Raese said...

Sue I have been praying for you today for peace and that the side effects will not be bad. I too am praying for peace that only God can provide, especially in the darkness of night.
'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." -2 Cor. 12:9-10 Anna Raese

Anonymous said...

Sue,
I know that God has led me to your blog to offer you encouragement. This is the same cancer that my mom has been battling. She is now 10 years out! She would LOVE to sit with you and talk you through it. She has just finished up another round of chemo that began in November and will be able to help you through this. You are not alone. She has a feeding tube and can help calm your fears. Most importantly, she will cover you with prayer and so will our entire family. You will be lifted up in prayer by my entire family. Let me know if you want to talk with me or have a visit. I would love to come and offer words of encouragement. You can also see from my mom that things are going to be good! God IS Good Sue and he will wrap his arms around you. God can heal and HE WILL!

Love you!
Julie Johnson Dahl
jdahl@shakopee.k12.mn.us

Anonymous said...

Sue and family...there are no words...I lost track of you several years ago after Mackenzie was born and now you have two beautiful daughters and a wonderful faithful network of family and friends. Ann Stuckey told me what was going on with you and asked for prayers. You've got it! I recall you as a very strong, courageous woman. God bless and love you all! xo Katie May

Anonymous said...

Sue, I am a friend of a friend (who is another young mom who is a cancer survivor) who was asked to add you to my prayers. It would be my honor to cover you in prayer during this most trying time for you and your family. I will be praying not only for your earthly cure, but for God to work among all those who care about you so you can feel Him holding you all the way. May God bless you!
Amy Denzer

Anonymous said...

Sue,

Your courage is awe-inspiring. It must be so scary to lose your sense of control... I cannot even imagine. But you have so many people you can count on, let Jason, the girls, your faith, and your friends and family be your rock right now.

My parents, Steph, and Jas send their love and prayers. Hayden sends her love to the girls.

Love, Suzie

Anonymous said...

Gene and I think about you every day and pray for you so often throughout the hours. You aren't alone in this journey, God holds you in his hand. Don't be afraid, His mercy and healing rain are pouring down on you.
Stay strong. with love, karen

Anonymous said...

Sue- You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers. Barbara VV