Friday, May 29, 2009


Matthew 6:25-27 "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life."

It has been an out of the ordinary Spring around the Karrmann household.  Not just because of the obvious reasons, but because we have had an unusual amount of birds making nests around our house.  The Robin that made her nest under our deck has moved on.  The babies have grown and have left the nest.  Another Robin has chosen to make a nest in a little tree by our front door.  The babies have hatched and are soon ready to leave the nest as well.  Barn Swallows have made their nest, as they have done so year after year, on top of our dryer vent. And in the last couple of days, Blue Birds have chosen to make a nest in a bird house that my daughter, Kendall, built and painted.  The bird house is sitting on the gazebo on our deck and every time we are sitting at the kitchen table we have front row seats to watching a miracle take place...watching the female make her nest, stick by stick while the vibrantly blue male watches over her.  

I know this may sound silly, but these birds have become a blessing to me.  They are a constant reminder of the power of God and his love for me.  I was given the verse above days ago about how much God cares for the birds and provides for their every need.  It is a great reminder that if God provides for these birds in every way, he will provide for us in every way.  If God cares for these birds, imagine how much He cares for us.  I think God sent these birds to our home to be a reminder that he is watching over us and to remind us of his love during this difficult time.  And most of all, a reminder that we need to completely trust God.

Yesterday was a very busy day.  I had an appointment with Radiation Oncology to begin planning for radiation treatment.  The radiation must be very precise since it will be given on my face and in my eye.  They are trying to minimize any damage that might be done to the eye.  They took several scans to better determine the anatomy of my face.  They also molded a mask that starts at the top of my chest and goes up over my head.  This mask will be placed over me every time I have radiation to prevent me from moving and to map out the precise area that is given radiation.  When the mask is placed over me, it is bolted to the table.  It has very little holes that I can see out of and breath through.  It is not a pleasant experience and somewhat claustrophobic.  I am not sure how I am going to handle having the mask on me for 30 minutes.  After the appointment with Radiation Oncology I was off to have the MRI and PET scans completed.  I will not know the results until Monday.  On Monday, they will decide what the next step will be.  If I had a good response again from the second round of chemo, they may decided to do another round.  If not, I will begin radiation on June 8.   It would be nice to have another week off from treatment, but on the other hand it is hard to wait.  I just want to get things rolling and done with!

Please pray that the cancer gets out of the orbit of my eye and that my eye is protected from the Radiation.  These are my biggest concerns, other than getting rid of the cancer all together.  My eye appointment went well the other day and my eye sight is perfect as well as my peripheral vision.


Connie said...

Bless you, Sue! I'm praying right now as hard as I can, fervently and repeatedly, for a successful treatment. That "mask" sounds scary, but I'll tell you what's helped me get through such ordeals (and there have been a few!)
I think THROUGH the process: how long will this take? what will I do next? what about tomorrow, when this is over? what are my girls doing? what will I be able to do next with them? What's Jason doing?
Visualizing can help, too. Visualize yourself well and going about your normal routines. Visualize you, Jason and the girls going for a walk --- or shoppping, etc. Anything to get your mind off the discomfort and tedium.

We're thinking of you and praying for you, Sue.
You are NOT alone. (sorry this got so long!)

connie stephens

Jen said...


Thanks for the update! Rich and I will be praying that you get good reports on Monday. Just know that you are constantly in my thoughts and I am holding you up in prayer many times a day. Have a wonderful weekend with your beautiful family!

Jen Falk

Anonymous said...

I love your thoughts about birds, Sue! I'm so glad to hear that these little winged-ones are lifting your spirits, giving you hope.

Here's a poem about just that:

A lighting promise on a branch
that brings hope to the soul.
When fear and doubt have muted faith
a song of God's control.

The dove came back to Noah's ark
two cardinals wing the words
of hope and bluejays wing of health
The Ministry of the Birds.

Love and healing and health and hope to you,


Anonymous said...

My mom (your mom's roommate at Taylor for 4 yrs.) shared your blog with me recently and I check on you often. I just had to comment as I have also been amazed at the incredible nests this spring. Glad they have been a blessing to you. Think about what a blessing they will be next year!! Praying for your results on Monday.

Anonymous said...

I think of you so often every day and pray for you. I pray you get good results from your tests on Monday!
Maryann Raese

Anonymous said...

Good to see you outside the other day Sue! You look great! Stay tough and know that prayers are everywhere for you.

We are looking forward to hanging out in the backyard with you on a regular basis very soon.


Anonymous said...

Sue, I don't know if you remember me from Novus, Joelle Busby McMahon. Shawn Anne and Leslie shared your story with me. My family and I are praying for you. I have two daughters, 7 and 4. They too are praying and have put you and your family on a special prayer list at school and church. Your words have incredible strength and courage in them. I wish and pray for a quick recovery for you.
God Bless

donna said...

Praying for you, Sue, during these difficult days. Wish you didn't have to go through so much. You are dear to so many.
Donna Lundborg