On Thursday of this week, they will be doing another MRI and PET scan to see how the tumor reacted to the chemo. I think I am more nervous about the results of the scans than I am of the next round of chemo. I am so worried that they will tell me the tumor has not shrunk. I am not sure if I will be able to handle that kind of news. Learning that the tumor has shrunk will bring me so much hope that will sustain me into the next round of chemotherapy.
Today, I had the echocardiogram to determine what has been causing my heart to pound and beat so fast. We do not have the test results as of yet, but the kind technician who performed the test did let me know that he did not see anything abnormal. He knew he was not supposed to say anything, but I think God nudged him a little to relieve my fears. So I am just going to tuck that one away and assume everything is fine and chalk it up to anxiety and the medications I was taking.
So as I am going through this week, my biggest challenge will not to worry about what is to come. But to take on every day one day at a time. To seize the moment.
The manna in the wilderness was given one day at a time. There was no storing up. That is the way we must depend on God's mercy. You do not receive today the strength to bear tomorrow's burdens. You are given mercies today for today's troubles. Tomorrow the mercies will be new. - "Loving God for Who He Is" - John Piper
God is faithful, by whom you were called into the fellowship of His Son, Jesus Christ our Lord." 1 Corinthians 1:9