Unfortunately, we cannot sit down with God and see him face to face. As a result many people, including myself, often question whether or not he is even there. Where are you God in all of this? Are you listening?
Often I know God is speaking to me and listening to me, but I myself am the one not listening. Or I am not giving him the chance to speak to me by not spending time in the Bible. Disbelief or anger also plays a factor in my ability to hear clearly from God in an intimate, personal way. Lately, I am learning that if I want to hear God speak to me it is as simple as just listening. I am finding that if I just be still in a quiet room I can hear a voice telling me, "Sue, you are going to be OK." But I struggle with discerning whether or not these are my thoughts or if it is truly God speaking to me.
I read the other day that we are one of God's sheep, and the sheep knows the Shepherd's voice - the voice of a stranger they will not follow. You can hear from God; it is part of your inheritance - don't ever believe otherwise! John 6:13 says "But when He, the Spirit of Truth (the Truth-giving Spirit) comes, He will guide you into all the Truth (the whole, full Truth). For he will not speak His own message [on His own authority]; but He will tell whatever he hears [from the Father; He will give the message that has been given to Him], and He will announce and declare to you the things that are to come [that will happen in the future]."
I am also learning that God is speaking to me through others. Many of you have given me words of encouragement and Bible verses to read. Your words are often the same words of encouragement that God has given me. It is a confirmation that what I am reading and hearing is the truth. So God is using many of you in more ways than one.
If it was so easy to experience God by having a face to face conversation, would we earnestly seek him or take the time to get to know him? If we never went through difficult circumstances in life, would we ever learn about how much God does care for us? I do know that ever since I have been diagnosed with cancer, I have been seeking God more than ever. I have been experiencing God like I have never done before.
Today, I am on day three of chemo. The nausea does not seem to be as bad, but my energy level is much worse. My kidneys seem to be working over time to get rid of the fluid retention so please pray that there has been no damage to my kidneys this time around. Please continue to let me know when you visit my blog. I love to hear from each and everyone of you. It uplifts my spirits and keeps me going.