Life Goes On

I am so excited today...I am going to Mackenzie's track and field day at school.  I have not been able to participate in the girls' activities for quite some time now.  I have missed out on Mother's Day teas, concerts, performances and end of school year activities.  It has really bummed me out to tell the girls that I can't go and see the disappointment in their faces.  

I think one of the hardest parts of going through this is that I can't participate in life, in what is going on around me.  I often look out the window to watch the kids playing and the neighbors talking.  I want so badly to be apart of it all.  I long for the days when I was out there with everyone enjoying the activities.  

I am trying to take every moment that I can to spend time with Jason and the girls.  Because these moments are rare...due to not feeling well or having the energy.  I have been really frustrated these past couple of days because I am not bouncing back as fast as I thought I would from this last round of chemo and I am fighting a nasty cold.  I was hoping to have some time before radiation to feel great and participate in life again.  I need this time so that I can regain my strength and renew my mind.  If I feel the way I have felt lately going into radiation, it is going to be tough on me physically and mentally.  

So my prayer today is that God will help me to get rid of this cold.  I also pray that my body will heal a little faster in the next couple of days.  And I pray that next week will give me a chance to renew my strength and mind.  

I want to take some time to thank all of you that have been providing meals for my family during this time.  It has been a HUGE blessing to our family to not have to worry about cooking dinner.  I am overwhelmed by the amount of people who are friends, neighbors and people we don't even know that have volunteered their time to make a meal.  MANY THANKS!

Sue